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Just venting I guess...

Submitted by an LD OnLine user on

Hi everybody,

I found this site and I just needed to talk to someone who would listen and maybe understand. I’ve tried talking to my close friends about what I’m going through and their answer is usually “You just need to be challenged more in your life” or “You’re fine! Everybody goes through that sometimes”

I’m a 25 yr old self-diagnosed inattentive with the possibility of a couple other LD’s as well. I’ve been to 3 different colleges so far (still haven’t finished) and more jobs than I can count.

I’m back home with my parents after getting into debt living in an apartment, and my parents can’t understand why a 25 year old who is old enough to be married and have kids can’t keep her room clean for more than a day. So on top of being depressed about having to move back home, I also have to deal with family who says that if I can’t act like an adult, they’re not going to treat me like an adult. We fight about this or my irresponsibility/procrastination/
laziness at least once a week.

I come home from work and I am SOO tired after trying to keep it together all at work all day that I come in, eat, say hi to the folks and I’m up in my room for the rest of the night where I sleep or lay comatose in front of the tv or online. I just thought I was lazy all the time, or that I needed to exercise or eat better or something.

But I happened to hear a psychologist on the radio who was talking to a woman who was always frazzled and couldn’t keep her life together. He suggested that she might have ADD and listed some symptoms. It was like a light went on! I started reading everything I could and the more I read, the more it was me.

I’m temping as an administrative assistant (a job that I hate). I love knowledge and would love to go back to school if it weren’t such a painful experience and I don’t want to fail at it again either.

Since I’m a temp, I have no health insurance and certainly no money to pay for testing, therapy or anything else I might need. I’m just kinda stuck.

Any suggestions anyone?

Thanks,

Ella

Submitted by Anonymous on Sun, 03/30/2003 - 1:52 PM

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you sound like me, every other day. @!#$ and Im 40!!!! you pooooor thing. how about natural sources?? explore natural remedies on the web? what state do you live in? the insurance things sucks. i no longer have any either. thank God i have a 3 month supply of pills. hahaha

write me at my home address [email protected] if you would like to talk more. I would love to. I know what your going through.

and by the way, get your ass back to school. TAKE ONE class, that is it. and go to the counselor and tell them of your disabilities. they can help you and give special accomodations. GO BACK to school. just take one class. that is all.

and another little tip…EXERCISE…just 15 minutes a day. anyone can do just 15 minutes a day. I mean, come on, whats 15 minutes from one hour in a 24 hour day????? i know you can do THAT!!!!!!!!!!!

Submitted by Anonymous on Fri, 04/04/2003 - 5:04 AM

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Ella,
Try the CHADD organization. I believe they have a program or can refer you to the right group to help you out.
I was diagnosed when I was 30 and started taking meds at that time. I like to think that my life started at that time in my life. I am so much happier with myself now. I finally feel smart. I couldn’t figure out why I felt smart and stupid all at the same time. I can now sit for a lecture and not fall asleep, I comprehend things that never would have made sense before, and I have more energy and am not always tired. I have a huge desire to learn everything. I can’t hide my enthusiasm about learning new things. I feel like a kid in a candy store.
Having ADD has been very hard, and the meds are not the end all be all, but they do help. I am sure there are some organizations that my support or sponsor people in your position.
I wish you all the luck…Keep your head up!
There is light at the end of the tunnel…it’s just ahead for you.
Anna

Submitted by Anonymous on Sun, 04/06/2003 - 1:15 AM

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Ella,

That sounds very familar. I have also been to many colleges. As for jobs, I haven’t had many of them for reasons that are complicated. Just wanted to say I have/am in the same situation. Email me @ if you want to talk, or vent.

Submitted by Anonymous on Sun, 04/06/2003 - 3:41 AM

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Yep YEp YEp !! just through a few hundred beers in the mix and thats me all the way!in the past five years alone I have lived in 5 differnt countrys and lets see here 3 differnt states, “running to stand still.” I can offer a bit of knowledge if you would care to E-mail me back. @ this point in my life I have become so disfunctional,that I’m lucky I can remember how to speak english. But I also
have a load of free time. and a half way deiecent Brain( whats left of it). so feel free I’ll write ya back.
neil

Submitted by Anonymous on Wed, 04/09/2003 - 3:06 AM

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Boy, I am glad that others are feeling the same way that I do….been to a bunch of colleges…don’t know how I ever got in. And I only have 9 credits in almost 20 years. But did managed to land a great job with a local state government, but then walked away. I usually don’t stay on a job more than a year and that is pushing it. Now, I am starting to forget words, places, and events….I’m only 37 and this shouldn’t be happening.

Submitted by Anonymous on Thu, 04/24/2003 - 2:49 PM

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I can’t believe that everyone here sounds just like me. One tip on college, I am 46 and have been taking classes since 1974. I had dropped more classes then I ever completed until 4 years ago when I learned that a nearby college offered on line classes and degrees. I was skeptical yet since the college was close and had a very good reputation I decided to try it. My experience was wonderful, in the privacy of my room I completed first my associates in business and then I continued on for my BBA. I never dropped a class and only received one C out of all my classes. The fact that I could do most of my work in the time that it would take me to drive, park and walk into a class was really a plus and I was able to set up my space with no distractions so I could read and communicate freely. Imagine a class without listening to the guy at the back of the room clear his throat instead of the directions from the instructor. I know I was able to really get something out of each class rather than just hoping to get through it. I urge anyone who has had many failed attempts at tradional education to check out the many opportunities available on line, but do make sure you check out the validity of the degrees offered because I have since run across some advertisements that just don’t seem quite right.

Submitted by Anonymous on Wed, 05/28/2003 - 5:26 AM

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When I applied for SSI and SSD, they sent me to a neuropsychologist for testing that they paid for themselves. The SSI and SSD might compensate for the times that you have been out of work.

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