Hi
I’m truly sorry that i have been away from the board. My intentions were to show all of you that it really can be fun to have ADHD. However I am only a street away from the West Warwick RI fire and the week has been the most devastating thing in my life besides loosing my mom in a fire.
It has been an experience that i swear to God has temorarily knocked the ADHD out of me.
I try to go on with things each day but find it impossible. The night of the fire, I was in the middle of tearing my bedroom and computer room apart. I was sick of the arrangement. The two )(&* neatest rooms in the house. Then the fire happened and I don’t think anyones lives in RI have been the same for the past 10 days.
I’m still walking over things. Believe it or not, I have a coffee table on it’s side in my bedroom. I have a large bedroom and computer room. Well I already have the mate to this coffee table in my bedroom. I have no idea what my intentions were to be with this coffee tavle. The small wooden file cabinet is in there also.
Some how in the past ten days I took all of the knick knacks off of the shelves. They are in the middle of the floor.
If I weren’t helping at the fire I would have thought I just fully lost it. Each and every night I go to bed with the best of intentions to get these two rooms done. I find myself sitting in a chair staring out the window.
Today was the second death. Actualy last night. We were told today. Up until the beginning of the week we had no hospatilized deaths. Now we have had two.
I continuously hear screams of horror. Thoughts of parents, children., friends, never seeing their loved ones again.
I met all of these people on Monday night. It was a night I do not want to live over again.
I have put all I have into helping. That much I can get myself to do. But one good thing has helped me. I had a stone outside my kitchen window. It was surrounded by teddy bears and flowers. It was a small memorial for my daughter who I lost Dec. 20, 2000. When I remove things from the grave, I put them in this memorial.
Anyway, the day after the fire, I was at the site. I kept thinking of the words on the stone, and how appropriate they were to be placed at the site. The family was due to visit on Sunday of last week. No one was allowed near there and there was a five mile no fly zone placed on all air planes. I left the site and came home for the stone. Rushed back and set it up right in the center.
That afternoon I had to go to cnn to look for something pertaining to a sickness that was going around with children. I clicked on cnn and almost had a heart attack. I thought it was the big one comming. There was a picture of the stone.
I startd to go to all the newspapers and it was all over the country. Tv stations were using it for their intos and outros. I can’t begin to tell you what it did to me. But most of all what it did FOR the families.
I was told at a meeting at the beginning of last week that the stone would be part of the permenant memorial that will take the place of the station.
No farewell Words Were Spoken,
No Time To Say Goodbye,
You Were Gone before We Knew It,
And Only god Knows Why
God bless