Help!

Jenny,
so many people responded to your first post, I don’t mean the boob who was ugly to you, I mean Barb and Steven and the rest. What do you need us to do? I encourage you to look in your phone book and just start calling places that look like they can help. State Vocational Rehab, county health, mental health, a crisis line, any of those are a good start. We are here to support you but you have to take the step of getting professional help. Please let us know how things go. You are important and we want the best for you.
Amy

Jenny,
Sometimes a bandage only hides a dangerously infected wound. I’m afraid that most people are only able to offer you bandages. If this is truely an emergency situation, call the police and tell them that you are suicidal. You have to be specific and be clear that it is a serious situation. They will probably put you in hospital on a a three day hold based on “being a danger to yourself.” This in itself may not be a big help but it can get services started. At least you know that having LD is something you need to deal with. I didn’t get DX until I was older than you are now and I wasted a lot of time in therapy. Once I knew that I needed support for my LD I was able to focus on setting new goals. I remember the first time I approached disabled student services I burst into tears in front of the secretary’s desk. No-one knows better than your fellow LDers how hard it can be, especially in the beginning, if you don’t have support. I know that having someone to talk about my goals with and the progress I was making or the fears I had was helpful. This forum might be a good place to do that. Unfortinately, we are not able to warm up a mug of milk for you and wrap a blanket around your shoulders so you will have to that for yourself. Take care of yourself and keep us posted.

I just read Ball’s last message to you and have to agree that if you possibly can you should find something to do to get yourself up and going. “One day at a time.” I also understand that there are times that pulling yourself up by the bootstraps just isn’t a possibility because you can’t always find the darn boots.

HONEY THE GOOD LORD HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES!!!
I must agree the the previous post. Get up off your couch before you get rooted. (their’s more to life than Springer )
May be all the response you got woked to feed your ego but hey that only showing you the way that we have found that help us and it only a point in a direction. You have to take charge of your own life and make some choices.
Just remember the the little boy that cried wolf to often ( I’m sure if you have not heard this childrens story you can find it at the libary ) hey there’s a reason to get up and go out .Nobody on the line said this struggle would be easy or be fixed in a day. A great man Confusious one said each journey starts with one single step . I’m sure that if you put your mind to anything you can achieve it but if you keep posting messages I know I’m one for sure would love to see your next post say something that had inspired your to get motativated, why not get some sticky notes and post them around your private space with postive messages to yourself or postive reminders like to shower .smile . go for a walk HE!! clean the cat’s litter any thing so at the end of your day you can say hey I got this done and maybe tommorrow seeing I did that today I can do this .
I don’t meant to be nosey but my hunch is that you turned to line because some thing did’t go your way to today and seeing that you got such support once well hey let’s try it again. It is not that those of us with L.D. are a hard bunch but we usually can smell a ploy for symapthy. As my Mother used to say” you can find sympathy between sex and syphillis” I’m not saying that we don’t care what is going on dear but but don’t burn your bridges here because we really can give you the support you need only when you’re ready to help your self
Wishing that all turns out well
Bonnie

Jenny,

I understand the desparation. I totally agree with the others about getting off the couch and tossing the remote. It’s an easy trap to fall into, but it will only make things worse if withdrawing from life becomes the way you cope with what you’re feeling.

One thing that helps me in a BIG way is exercise. You don’t need to go to a gym, one way to do it is get up early, put on some comfortable clothes on and take a really brisk 20 minute walk. If you plan on doing that every morning, it’s possible for your whole day to be a lot more positive and productive. It will give some structure to your life, a good starting point for helping yourself. It also reduces stress, increases confidence and boosts the immune system. It got me off antidepressants and able to see the glass half full on my own. It feels really really good if you keep at it, both physically and psychologically. Maybe doing that will help you get into action with any of the things that were suggested in the last thread you started. You got a great response, there’s a lot of good stuff to do that will help you in there.

I also agree though that if your crisis is urgent and immediate, definitely call for help. It really is out there for you, you can get through this! No matter what you do though, it sounds like you need to be your own advocate, and that must be really hard without the support and encouragement of the people you love most. No matter how hard it is Jenny, don’t be stopped by the resignation and resistance around you - you deserve to have what you need!!

Please keep us posted - we want to know you’re safe…

Audrey

So Jenny what you do today I’m courious , was it a nice day for a walk. Just asking ,Did you get a chace to stick up some stickey notes
Bon

Hi Jenny,

I reread your initial post so I would hopefully post a useful response. As an FYI, I had a suicidal depression in 95 and was able to completely recover and find a job that I held onto for over four years. I have LD/ADHD.

The cause of my problems were similar to yours, in not feeling like I was getting any support. But thanks to some wonderful mental health professionals, I got through it.

I noticed in your first post that you didn’t have any insurance. Whoever said that is going to make it tougher is correct but Jenny, it sounds like from your posts, you really do need to see someone for help. Even though I usually hold strong to the belief that depression is a secondary issue to LD, in my case in 95 and it sounds what is happening with you right now, the depression has taken on a life of its own. I really am concerned.

If you live in the states, I would start calling your local mental health association. Also, religious organizations like the Jewish Social Services are other possibilities. Jenny, I know it is hard from personal experience to lift that finger to call for help but you have to do it. We can give you the support you need but we are not trained mental health professionals.

If I remember correctly, in that other thread, a site was suggested for you to visit that might be helpful as far as many referring you to a mental health professional. Have you done that?

Meanwhile, I agree also with Ball, you have to find a way to get yourself off the couch. Even if you can only do something else for fifteen minutes, at least you are breaking the pattern of the depression.

Please Jenny, check in to let us know how you are doing. We really do care.

PT

WOW you would think with all the crap going on in the world GOD wouldn’t have time to be hitting our little post it page,but it just “shows to go ya that” that it takes all kinds to make the world go round. Rather than giving in to that kind of person giving a response I think if it is just acknowledged that those kind of people are out there and sometimes they will post in approitate do-do on a page. I know for my computer it was deleted,because I rather than wasting time on worring about that kind of bovine excretement would like to know if You went for at least a walk Jenny or cleaned the cat box or something let us know eh
REMEMBER IT HARD TO SOAR WITH EAGLES WHEN TURKEYS KEEP GETTING IN YOUR WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AS FOR GOD
DON’T YOU THINK YOU HAVE BETTER MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO

PEACE OUT

BONNIE

Jenny,

The person calling himself God is one sick puppy, an exceptionally cruel and viscuous person. You are so much better than that, his posts aren’t worth wasting one second of your time or energy on. These messages have absolutely nothing to do with you, it is the sick thoughts in his own head. People like that look for the most vulnerable targets they can find, that’s all. Has nothing to do with who you are in any other way.

Hang in there, the rest of us (and there are LOTS of us) are thinking about you and want to know how you’re doing…..please write us back!

Audrey

Hey, Jenny-girl!

How are you doing today?

Audrey had a great suggestion with walking. I know I feel better when I get some expercise in.

Take one positive step (no pun intented) and then let us know how life is going.

Barb

A poster here mentioned her mother’s saying.
My mom recited this Robert Service poem to me so many times that I knew it by heart as a kid. Looking back, maybe mom understood that things were going to be tough for me. I will post it here, because I think it is a good old poem.

The Quitter
by Robert Service
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When you’re lost in the Wild, and you’re scared as a child,
And Death looks you bang in the eye,
And you’re sore as a boil, it’s according to Hoyle
To cock your revolver and … die.
But the Code of a Man says: “Fight all you can,”
And self-dissolution is barred.
In hunger and woe, oh, it’s easy to blow …
It’s the hell-served-for-breakfast that’s hard.
“You’re sick of the game!” Well, now, that’s a shame.
You’re young and you’re brave and you’re bright.
“You’ve had a raw deal!” I know — but don’t squeal,
Buck up, do your damnedest, and fight.
It’s the plugging away that will win you the day,
So don’t be a piker, old pard!
Just draw on your grit; it’s so easy to quit:
It’s the keeping-your-chin-up that’s hard.
It’s easy to cry that you’re beaten — and die;
It’s easy to crawfish and crawl;
But to fight and to fight when hope’s out of sight —
Why, that’s the best game of them all!
And though you come out of each gruelling bout,
All broken and beaten and scarred,
Just have one more try — it’s dead easy to die,
It’s the keeping-on-living that’s hard!

I definately agree with the group. When I feel down, I exercise or take a walk. Staying bottled up at home can just get a person down. Hook up with some good friends or meet some at a church, disability group, or some kind of support group. How about volunteering somewhere? There is a lot of things we can do when we get down.

G.B.
Steven