I just needed a place where I could vent….tomorrow is my last day at my job. I am an advertising representative at a smalltown weekly newspaper and have been there (a NEW record for me) 4 years. My boss is a real JERK and he callled me into his office 2 weeks ago and told me I needed to be more organized and more focused on my career and then he ask me “What motivates You?” I had no answer but he said it should be money. I gave him my 2 weeks notice that second. Money should motivate me, but I only took that job 4 years ago because I had too.He was trying to get rid of me anyways because I’m a disruptive person in his office- I talk too much, I’m late with everything and I’m too moody. I hate myself for giving up so suddenly.
My first diagnosis with ADHD was when I was 21 years old, I’ll be 29 in 2 weeks. I’m sad, lost and I have nothing to show. I’m attached to a patient, caring man who’s sweeping me off to Texas where he is located with his job until April, he’s 15 years older than I am and I feel like sometimes I rely on him too much to take care of me, because I’m so unstable and fickle. I quit taking my meds, Dexedrine and Celexa about 3 months ago because I couldn’t afford them anymore and there are no programs for someone my age in this state that I’m aware of and I feel that there are other people out there that need help more that I do. . I’ve never told my employer of my ADHD or my depression, because I feel like he’d think its all a bunch of bull and he wouldn’t care. I don’t know if what I’m writing makes sense. I’m just typing whats eating me up inside.
I don’t know what to do with myself…I would love to be able to go back to college and actually get a degree but I can’t study. I can’t even concentrate typing this. But I don’t know what I’m good at. Does anyone have any suggestions for a 29 year old gal with nothing to lose.
Re: Just needed a place to vent
[quote=”NoDakSnowBunny”]I just needed a place where I could vent….tomorrow is my last day at my job. I am an advertising representative at a smalltown weekly newspaper and have been there (a NEW record for me) 4 years.
Four years is a pretty good record for someone your age. And you’re moving to Texas with someone you care about? Sounds like the perfect time to quit a job to me.
You’ll get a new job in Texas and one with health insurance and a prescription plan so you can afford your meds. Sounds like you need to be back on them. You can’t concentrate without your meds but yet you wrote a very poignant post- And you’ve held jobs these years without a degree. What about trying to get a job at a college or university? then you could likely take courses for free and get your health insurance. And you’ll find the working atmosphere at a college or university very different from the for-profit world where you’ve been working. Your background as a ad rep will help you to get a job. And universities are hiring everywhere!
dont’ let that 15 year age difference bother you. Everybody needs to be taken care of once in a while and you’ll get to retire early when he does.
hi.
You’ve got an opportunity to move to Texas. That’s great. Use it to clear your mind - find out what you’d like to do. You, no doubt, noticed that meds were a great help. If they work to keep you focused, re-think going back on.
You’ll earn the money they cost - that’s for sure.
Sales rep is a good job for ADHD types - maybe some other kind of sales would work for you - perhaps with a more understanding boss.
There are ways to keep your sense of humour - find em!
Maybe a support group would be good. Or a ADHD performance coach who could help you see the positive in what you do.
Do a search on google and you’ll find there are answers.
good luck,
judih